Man it is hot

It is so humid too. I am usually not in the city this time of year and next year I will try not to be. It is hard to breathe. To top it off I just spent a ridiculous amount of money to fix my car because apparently when my car was robbed a couple weeks ago, they did extensive electrical damage.

But I did have accupuncture today so that was relaxing.

I start stims tonight. It feels like it took so long to get to this point. Everything seems to be moving in slow motion which is very different than before so maybe thats a good sign. I started listening to these meditation CD's that a friend gave to me. The one thing I can say is that I listen to them right before bed and the last two nights I have actually slept through the night and wake up very rested so if anything, that is so worth it.

Good Weekend

Had a good weekend. A lot of things that kept my mind pretty relaxed. I went to the beach yesterday. It was fun and the water was not super cold but we did witness three saves by the lifeguards.

I have been having crazy dreams lately and I have no idea what to make of them so now I just except it as normal...for now.

My sisters burthday was today and she is going to Disney. I do wish I could go. I was feeling kinda guilty today because I feel like I haven't done anything with her in a long time and this would've been a fun trip.

But this all for the best. I started getting anxious today about the whole thing. I have changed my diet, taken my vitamins and excercised more this time around. I still can't relax about my ER. It's so crazy tghat when it comes down to it, it really is out of my hands.

So for now I will just believe that only the best is coming for us.....

A little moody today

Woke up this morning pretty sad. About it all our situation my career, life. I am sure it is the Lupron. I just did not feel this way last time. My dreams are also just getting more and more vivid. So I just tried to relax and clear my mind and I think it worked a little.

I am going to visit a few friends today. So I am trying to perk up. No need to bring others down. One great thing. My husband is baking cookies right now. Cookies make everything better.

Lupron...uneventful... til today

So I have been bad about writing about this cycle but I will keep up. Been house sitting and having a great time just relaxing. SO the same old stuff. Lupron. It's preety uneventful. I feel like an expert. But of course when I start getting cocky about it, I was about to give myself the shot and it fell into the dogs blankets and "stuffs" So needless to say, had to trash it. I hope I don't run out. That would suck. I doubt it will but...really???

Anyhoo, just trying to stay in my relax mode as long as I can and see what is next.

I have been having many dreams about all my friends giving birth or about to. Weird. Oh and then the dream just turns into small mice nibbling at my ankles. If anyone can crack that one, let me know.

And Away We Go

So it finally came yesterday and we begin Aygestin today and Lupron on Wednesday. Then I don't see the doc til the 29th. g
But of course, in my life that can never go on without some random event, my car was robbed! And radio taken. Fun morning.

Lets get this show on the road.

I am mentally and physically ready to strat IVF #2 but my body has a mind of its own. So because my cycle was a week late last month we are already behind schedule. Now my period is two days late and its pushing everything back again. I guess good things come to those who wait but it can get frustrating.

Happy 4th!

Today is a good day cause I SLEPT! for 13 hours! Weird. I was so tired I couldn't keep my eyes open. But I finally feel rested for now. We are going to see the fireworks tonight on the Hudson River with some friends and just chill. I am into this sleeping thing......